I was curious what that exactly means... I thought I knew but I don't think I completely know. I was reading proverbs and I saw this
"He who walks in his uprightness fears the LORD
but he who is perverse in his ways despises Him"
That is something to think about I guess..
I have had lots on my mind lately. Nothing specific I think I have just been dwelling on things more which is probably no good. So this post will be random.
I realize I get hurt easy. I realize people hurt me and I hurt people and it's a terrible cycle. It's wrong to hold expectations on someone that they won't hurt you or fail you in ways. It's scary to think I may have those expectations held on me as well and I know I do. Even the ones I love most will disapoint and hurt me, and I will do the same unless I am completely submitting to Christ and walking in His spirit. I wish so many things and often forget to just trust the LORD to control my life and everything I desire and want. I desire so deeply to completely submit all I am to Him. I hate when I am not walking in the spirit. It really only leads me to hurt and pain, and eventually destruction in my life. I think for now my hugest prayer is that Christ would reign over my mind and heart and everything! I know my life would hold a much lighter load.
Well, this is a shorty but I am way tired. I'll be working most everyday except Weds and Sun so I am thinking it's about time to get on a normal schedule.
Goodnight everyone!
kesh~
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2 comments:
Baby baby,
I know I don't always meet the expectations that you have of me. And for that I am sorry. But I am SOOO thankful that you see me for who I am: A Sinful Man. I love that you are so full of grace with me! That is a huge encouragement for me! I love you baby and I hope that by His grace I can become more sensitive to your needs and expectations. You are far better than I deserve!
Yours always,
Vin
Hi Kesha! I liked your blog - it shows that you are thinking about and preoccupied with what it means to follow God with all your heart. What a great thing! It can get so confusing to me sometimes about what all of it means. One time I asked a mentor what it means to 'fear' the Lord... she told me that it's not about being afraid, but about holding an incredible amount of respect for your creator. Just like with any parents... I'm never afraid that they will punish me severely or love me less for anything that I do, but out of deep respect I choose to love and honor them with my actions. I think it's great to apply that to how I try to serve God.
Something cool that my friend told me today... she said that in her women's Bible study they took Psalm 91 (a fave of mine) and anywhere that it said 'you' they would insert their own name and read it aloud that way. It definitely puts a more personal spin on it... and to me, that little exercise reaffirmed to me that the Lord works specifically and directly in my own life. I encourage you to try it!
Kitri
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