Something that has been bothering me about myself and I think could potentially or has been interfering with my friendships and relationships is, I realize I have this problem with believing that people are genuine. It's terrible. I automatically put up a wall when it comes to people and their genuineness. I'm always making people prove themselves in someway. They usually don't even know I am doing it, and I don't even know I am doing it completely until I evaluate my thoughts. I have so many great people in my life, and the only ones I truly trust and know are genuine are most of my family and a select few of my friends. I want so badly to trust people and not be so afraid of being hurt by them. We all have our quirks I guess, and there is much room in my mind and heart for God to make me grow and much molding to be done. Sometimes I feel so warped and I just pray God will mold me back into something useful and real. I desire with all my heart to be a Godly woman and to Love the Lord with all my heart, and find completeness and fulfillment in him alone. I need to make Jesus my first love and I know the rest of my life will fall into place with grace.
Now on a completely different note... I am sitting at Sip and I love the scenery outside. It’s POURING down rain and it’s beautiful to me, and I am excited because I am actually warm and toasty, not freezing to death. I am thinking about getting some bubble tea but I am going to have to pass on the blended because I don't want to lose my nice warm feeling going on. It will have to be a Hottie McHotster :-)
Yesterday I talked to Travis for the first time. I hear lots about him and notice he writes tags on Grants tag board. Since we go way back and all I thought I should make a mention of him in my post. Sorry Travis for neglecting your friendship :-) Thanks for being such a longtime good old friend! And I look forward to meeting you when you come visit
kesh~
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