Gods grace, is sufficient for me.

2 Corinthians 12:7

“My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness”

This verse is pretty much perfect right at this moment. I love when you open your bible and something amazing is sitting right there waiting for you to read. My heart seems very compulsive right now, and I am having a hard time holding back from something that I am not sure if I ought to feel. It’s one of those things where you feel like if you don’t take control of it right now you will miss out. Why can’t I trust God when I need to most? In the times that I need him to do the action taking I lose the trust and I get discouraged and scared and I worry that what I want wont happen because I am not in control. Anyone anyone?? Those things you shouldn’t be thinking about love to interrupt a perfectly good focused heart. I just need to release it to God and get over it.
What do I need to do Lord? I feel completely lost and broken apart. I pray you will ease my heart and take the things away that are consuming my mind. I am a little upset about this. I wish so much complication could stay away just for now at least, until I move. I am feeling overwhelmed a little. Ok I am way too much of a complainer. I’m gonna talk about some stuff that is great on my mind.

First, I am so thankful to God for my work situation. How smoothly leaving has been, and I thank him for how understanding and wonderful my manager has been to me. Also, I just want to thank the Lord for the chance to spend a little time with my Dad lately. Even though it’s not the greatest time together I enjoy being with him. The weather has been like a dream. I just got a cool book from Vin that I’m going to read, and I got to kinda hang out with him and talk about an awesome thing he and some people from his school/church are starting, it’s definitely on my heart to pray for and I am glad I can do that. I know God will bless it beyond their expectations. I’m a little sad because I wish I could be a part of it but I am leaving to Chicago in April so that’s not much of an option. That’s ok, maybe God has something for me in Chi town? Who knows. I wish I could know for sure if it’s where I am supposed to go. I mean I can’t back out now, not that I want to even I guess it’s just getting close and I am getting a little scared. I’m excited too though. I’m totally blabbing right now.
I wish I was tired so I could go home and go to bed. Maybe I'll try writing a "poem" Oh a good song came on finally... what ever happened to Weezer anyway? I kinda liked them back in the day.
Lord,
I say I love you, the words seem to come out so sweet
You are an amazing song but I’m dancing to a different beat
I’m hungry and you offer me something sweet to eat
I walk away onto that busy street
I hear a voice calling my name
I feel a warm tender embrace
I’m falling for you but I have that thing called pride
You see everything but I think I can hide
I’m like a puppet on a million strings
Controlled by all these worldly things
Take the reign God, take control
I’m yours, your daughter, your servant your bride
I’m free now walking at your side.
I’m Speechless at the thought of your grace.
I’m thankful that you are putting me in my place.

Yours,
Kesha Burke.