A feeling of goodness

Colossians 3:12-17
12So, as those who have been chosen of God, holy and beloved, put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience; 13bearing with one another, and forgiving each other, whoever has a complaint against anyone; just as the Lord forgave you, so also should you. 14Beyond all these things put on love, which is the perfect bond of unity. 15Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body; and be thankful. 16Let the word of Christ richly dwell within you, with all wisdom teaching and admonishing one another with psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with thankfulness in your hearts to God. 17Whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through Him to God the Father.

I was actually reading through Colossioans 2:8 and was asking Vin what it meant, It was a little confusing to me, and as I skimmed through I just came across this verse that really brought joy to my heart.
“Put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience…. Bearing with one another and forgiving each other….”
Oh my goodness that is SO encouraging and SO what I desire from the LORD. I am realizing just how much I need Christ to control and reign in my life/heart/mind. All of who I am. I need to be humbled. I need spiritual humility. I pray I can learn what it is to be submissive. I need to learn to walk in Christ’s spirit. It’s so evident to me when I am in my flesh depending on my own strength and my own discernment. I feel no joy in the choices I make for myself, no confidence in the things I build on my own. I am desperate for God. Lately I feel as though God is pulling me closer to Him. He is such a refreshing drink after a small drought in my heart. I desire to know Him deeper and more intimately so much! He is my first love and I am SO deeply in love with him.
Can I just say, I am so encouraged, so thankful for Vin in my life. God uses him SO much to encourage and uplift me, to show me love and value, comfort and companionship. So many wonderful amazing things I am sooooo blessed to get to experience with another human. I am so in love with him. I am so excited to be his wife! Before I knew Vin I had such a shattered perception of value for myself and I didn’t exactly have a clear and confident understanding of who I am in Christ and the value and freedom I have according to God. I just can’t believe how absolutely amazing God is… I am so undeserving. Praise you God for being capable of everything and anything. For the divine plan you had for Vin and Me, for working in us and for us, for guiding and protecting us. Preparing us for marriage. Thank you Lord!