finally some tears...

So today was a pretty good day. I slept too late and I am really starting to not like that but I am praying the Lord will lead me to a job here soon so I can not feel so useless and lazy. Vin and I spent some time at Jillian and Tyler's house and had dinner and played a game. It was so nice to spend some time with them all. Jillian and I haven't had much time to be able to talk and see how each other is doing etc. I was thankful for the time I had with her tonight. She's a great friend and encouragement to me.
So about the tears. It sounds silly but my heart is truly broken. My aunt has a Chocolate lab named Maggie, whom I love so so so much like my own dog. I haven't been that close with a pet before besides a kitty I had who died about 7 years ago, anyway I have spent a lot of time with her alone when I would house sit for my aunt, I would take her for walks and it would make her so excited because she didn't get to go on many. She brought a lot of joy into my life. She was a friend in a really sincere way. (I am kinda making fun of myself because I sound like such a yuppie but I love her so much) Something happened between my aunt, uncle and me and I haven't seen much of them for a few months, it's really terrible and I know I need to make things right with them. I just found out Maggie has cancer and is going to die really soon and I am afraid to face my aunt and uncle to see her. I came to the house I am housesitting tonight, which happens to be right across the street from my aunt and I saw a note on the garage addressed to me and it said
"Kesha- Did you know Maggie has cancer and not long to live. Take her for a walk
There are 4 beautiful kittens at Cathys (my aunts) that would love to see you
Grandma-"
My aunts cat had babies and I haven't seen them but my Grandma knows how much I love taking Maggie for walks and how much I love kittens. I feel so sad and I can't stop the tears from streaming down my face. I have too much pride. I need to see Maggie before she dies. I feel so heart broken for my family who loves her and is going to lose her.
Thanks for reading.
heart broken,
kesh~